sigh to the sound of spanish guitars

My great realization of the day….I love what I do.  How many people can say that?  I love that by working for the Adrienne Arsht Center i have a say, a place in the powers that can make a difference in our Miami community.  My hands actually touch and shape our cultural hub of tomorrow.  It’s fascinating the mechanics of media and marketing.  The marriage of the two has the influential powers to make the people of miami think differently then they did the day before.  Miami has changed personalities multiple times since its creation but one thing remains constant and that is its ability to bear people who care enough to create a lifestyle; the courage and commitment to bring an image to life. We hear at the Arsht Center want to see a family centric entertainment arena, a cultural pietry dish and an economic mechanism creating jobs for all abled bodies.  Among our Jazz Roots: La Raza Latina rush for Friday’s performance, our day included a new proposal of a Miami city shaping.  The new idea is too talk about the city in 3 sectors.  The financial district. The Brickell Area. And the Arts and culture district.  Lets see what will roll out.

Does that sound like “soooo Miami”?

Elizabeth Taylor looks like Meghan Fox.  Or i guess you should say Meghan Fox looks like Elizabeth Taylor out of respect to the dead.  

Listening to all the sounds that mean something and thing about the things that meant something.  That meant the most.  Why do we spend our lives running away from the exact thing we know we love.  What are we trying to prove.  I remember when you took me hiking.  I remember.  How everything was so causal. But then there were others that were causal.  Who is it that i miss, or am i just not happy and thats why i am looking for something to miss.

Senior year.  Of college.  It was the best.  Not because he was perfect but because the timeing for all parties involved were perfect.  I dont think thats something that will ever happen again.  So no, i am not an adult crying over not being young wild n free and in college any more.  Im just saying the universes were in line at that time.

Who can help? No one but yourself.

I want to make a beautiful white dress.  With lace.  that looks like its from the fifties. with a tiny black belt that accentuates the waist.  I want to tie my hair up in loose curls and feel proper.  With a thin black ribbon in my hair.

I want to watch my beautiful hands work, see them glide across the key board with confidence. I think hands are one the most tasteful parts of the body.  Perhaps if i focus on them more i can reach the degree of elegance i long for.

Remember everyday to write, read and put a little piece of your mind on paper.  Eyes open and arms stretched you can reach the things you desire most.

Remember to make lists and cross things off lists.

Remember to run the anger of defeat away.

Become the strong female you see in your mind.  Take karate! Find peace.

Sometimes routine is necessary.

I think a huge problem of mine is the lack of a role model.  Why did i never think of that before? Who do i look up to? Have you ever stopped and asked yourself who you aspire to be like in life?  I think i’ll change that right now.

Maria from the Sound of Music and Nancy Botwin.  Which is a bit of a contradiction yet true.  Both fighters. One moral, one not so much.  I also find it funny that i place my aspirations in fictional characters.  Meryl Streep once gave a speech about how she’ll never be as strong and courageous as many of the women she represents in her movies.  However, she wants to do these amazing women justice in portraying their stories and therefore she gets to experience their strength through their characters. And look at that, by pretending to be other famous strong people, she became a famous strong woman herself. I think i’ll add Meryl Streep to the list as well. 

Definitely Sharon my new mentor and friend.  My photography professor Romeo from SACI in firenze, italy.

What do they all have in common?  The unwavering strength and ability keep fighting. Each has an artistic niche of how they go about doing their work and passions. The inability to fail.  And most importantly, they all know the importance of laughter and love.  They chose laughing over yelling.

Next time you feel depressed, defeated or like your loosing the fight or dream, just think of your role model.  They didn’t give up, and neither should you.

I often deny my love of musicals and beautiful classical music as well…..note to self. Fix that.

i think the goal is to find a lover who will be a kid with you. And yet a lover who will help you be an adult when life says you have too.

Freedom. romantic vespa rides to the center. he doesn’t know. he’ll never know. He’ll care to know but he’ll never do the research to find out. I want him to waiting for me. His skin longing for me.  But i don’t know if his desire with ever be that great.

As i rode down the tuscan mountain in the car of my new found friend and PR mentor Sharon, i thought to myself, ‘I made this happen.”  I found a contact in this crazy world of 6 billion people and was brave and persistent.  I found her, came to her, and proved my determinations.  And sure enough she was a beast of the same creator.  She told her story of coming to Italy.  How it started as a vacation and then suddenly she found herself asking “why not?”  So she moved her family and business to a traditional country home on top of a hill in Poggibonsi and now looks out at castles over breakfast. When she told me she was impressed with my degree of focus on the subject at age 23, i laughed.  ”Me focused?  You don’t know who your talking to.”  She responded, “someone who didn’t have some significant passion would not be sitting where you are right now. Never be afraid to ask.  And never be afraid to take a chance.”

someone who loves hooks and hanging things. 

i wash my socks in the sink every night and hang them from a shelf at the end of my bed to dry.

i use shampoo to wash my hair, face, body and clothes.

i don’t own a hair dryer or a brush.

i layer clothes and make funny combinations that i think look cool but not too many others do.

i like to work for 6 months and then spend all my money to travel for one.

i read 6 different books at one time.

i throw one of everything left in the refrigerator in a pot for dinner.

i sneak on the train so i don’t have to pay 1 euro for the bus.

my father is a successful cinematographer and my mother is a doctor, and i have a degree from Penn State University but i rather dance in a piazza for coins if it means getting paid to do something i love.

i’m always late and not many people give me a chance because they judge to quickly.

Are we compatible. Do i want to ask such a question?

i miss the person i was before. and i’m tired of always seeking approval from people.